i just want to cry

it sucks to be lonely..

it sucks to be alone..

it sucks to eat alone in the room

it sucks to have a phone that won't ring..

it sucks to have internet but no one to chat with

it sucks to have everything but still knowing that there's only me...

it sucks to not have someone to always be there for me..

it sucks to not have someone that i can call or text 24/7..

it sucks to not have someone to care about me.

it sucks to not have someone think about me day and night..

it sucks to cry about how lonely i feel and alone i am..

basically i'm typing this post with tears..

because this is it..

this is the point where i crack..

where i just need at least a person to be with me..

to comfort me when i'm down..

to be happy for me when i'm happy..

to be with me when times get rough..

to tell me that everything is gonna be okay..

 to wipe away my tears when i cry..

i just need someone to make me believe that i'm worth it again..

someone that could open my heart..

to accept love and be loved..

i might be strong on the outside..

but look closer..

i'm crying so bad on the inside..

a smile might wipe tears away..

but not the pain of the heart..

i'm hoping that no one and i mean NO ONE

has to feel the same way that i'm feeling right now..

it's bad enough that i feel like this..

so dear Allah.

i pray for happiness for everybody in this world..

may they don't have to feel alone in their life..

amin~