Selamat Hari Raya or Happy Eid Mubarak!!!

so, bulan puasa dh habis..

sigh..

sayu pulak..

tapi2..

suka jugak bila nak raya..

dapat duit raya!

yeay!

*sila jeles sebab anda sudah tak dapat..=P

so raya macam biasa la..

balik ke bandar..

haha

tapi, raya ni meriah sedikit..

why?

sebab saya beraya bersama kenalan baru..
mereka-mereka yang saya gembira saya kenal...

saya dapat kenal YANDA! 

yer saya tahu dia jelek..=P

haha...yanda cipta pribadi siregar!

dan juga ZULMY!

ini sahaja pic zulmy yg ada..sorry..

haha..

kawan-kawan from Jakarta yang nun jauh d sana..

haha...

so, sebenarnya..

post ini adalah untuk mengucapkan,

SELAMAT HARI RAYA,

MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN..

andai ada tersilap kata dan terkasar bicara, mohon d maafkan..

muka saya innocent xley blaaa=)

saya penakut

i once felt this way..

well, it's normal right?

for a girl to be in love with someone whom is right for someone else..

i mean with a guy that is being loved by someone else..

*okay dah start melalut and merapu..but u guys get the point kan? don't let me repeat this..haha...

so after hearing this song,

it reminded me what i used to felt and do..

i would just leave and ignore my feelings..

cruel to myself but kind and fair to others..

haha..

*yes saya tahu saya baik n angel-like...tlgla jgn puji lagi..malu laa...=P

back to this post..

i believe it's normal to do what i did..

because all we want is for our loved ones to be happy..

even if it is not with us..

even if we have to sacrifice our love..

even if it means we have to be cruel..

as long as the person i love is happy, 

then i guess i am happy..

stupid much? NOPE

i call this true love...

the only thing i do best

why do problems keep on coming in my life..

sometimes i just can't handle this alone...

honestly, i feel so lonely..

i feel that i am alone..

i have to bare the burden alone..

sometimes i just wanna leave my house, go somewhere..

and start a new life where nobody knows me..

but it's impossible...

i love my siblings that much..

wish i had a shoulder to cry on...

but i don't..

i'm alone and will always be alone..

why?

because i ain't good enough for anyone..

i wanna go to the beach..

and scream my guts out..

i wanna be a magician..

and disappear from people's life..

i wanna be invincible..

so that people would appreciate me more..

i wanna be loved..

so that i can share how i feel..

i'm sick and tired of pretending to be happy..

when the truth is i'm not..

i just wish that somehow..

people would see the tears in my eyes behind my smile..

guess for now i have to do the only thing i do best..

put on a smile for everyone..

and cry on the inside...

camera owh camera

so yes..

i couldn't find the camera..

sigh..

not for taking pictures..

but for uploading them..

well i wanted to upload pics from jakarta..

but the camera is now M.I.A..

yes, missing in action..

but even if i upload those pics..

i still can't tag people in the pics..

why?

because i was asked not to..

hurm..

weird but i respect that..

i won't tag that person..

maybe that person is worried that his beloved would see those pics..

and misunderstand the whole situation..

never mind..

at least we had fun while it lasted,,,

i may not have anything else to remind me of you,

but at least i've got the memories we shared..

when everything starts to fade away,

i have memories with me..=')

sorry from the bottom of my heart

i don't know what i did wrong..

i don't know how i offended you..

i don't know why you're mad at me..

i seriously don't know...

but for all the wrongs i did...

i am..

truly..

deeply..

sincerely..

sorry for everything..

one word

one word to describe my health right now..

sucks...

yup..

my health sucks...

now having a flu+sore throat+headache+insomnia..

sigh..

i need a rest..

dear mr flu..

can we be together next month..

please? pretty please??

i need a break...

i'm all alone and there's no one to be my strength...

and plus, i hate you..

*yes i hate you sbb berhingus bagai and all..haha...okay, pengotor..haha

and x vogue ar pakai cantik2 tapi berhingus..

haha...

and yes i know..

title post ni ckp 'ONE WORD'

tp ni dah melimpah-limpah macam lori perkataan terbalik kan?

*suka hati aku la, blog aku,.,haippp...nak one word, pergi tulis di blog sendiri..=P
so sila doakan mr flu pergi jauh-jauh daripada saya..
and, and..
saya cepat sihat supaya lagi banyak post gembira boleh d post...
post yang riang-riang..
*ko ingat macam iklan super ring? super ring hebat, super ring riang???
eh biar la...
sukahatimakbapaklakitirimaksayalaaa...
hehe...
selamat ber' fill in the space'  la semua..

headache again and again

Ya Allah..

sakit kepala makin menjadi-jadi..

tak tertahan lak sakitnya kali ni..

kalau boleh tidur, lain cerita...

ni tak boleh tidur+bosan...

sigh...

i need entertainment..

or maybe aspirin..

xkisah laa..

i just need my headache to go away..

i need to rest..

or maybe a hug from a special someone..

just to ease the pain..

and to tell me that everything will be okay..

i need your hug..=(

my health sucks..

yes..

you guessed it right..

I'm not well....

AGAIN!

haish...

my head hurts..

my body feels tired...

i feel like vomiting..

and my eyes feels like burning..

geeshh..

what did i do wrong this time..

nak kata xcukup tidur..

rasanya dah more than cukup tidur..

tp kepala sakit macam nak pecah..

n yes, i am not the medication lover type

ee...xsuka la mkn ubat..

tak sedap langsung..

cuba la if sakit tu ubatnya manis2..

this is my type of medication..woohoo...

macam chocolates, sweets, marshmallows or ice cream...

xsuruh pun dah makan..

haha..

*yer saya suka makan semua junk food itu and sebab tu saya CHUBBY...take note, saya sebut chubby..haha..=P

so hopefully i'll get well soon..

nanti mau iftar bersama rakan2..

takkan nak sakit je kan?

nanti dah x comel la..

haha

*suka hati saya la nak cakap saya comel..semua diam..=D

so pray for the best of my health okay..

as i will always pray for yours..

jika cinta itu milikku

haipp...

tajuk tu jiwang kan??

haha

ni semua gara-gara movie Ketika Cinta Bertasbih..

hurmm..

it made me think and realised..

Allah itu Maha Adil dan Maha Mengetahui..

"kalau dia jodohku, datanglah musibah apa pun..

dia tetap jodohku"

and now teringat dengan lagu dalam movie tu

Ayushita-Tuhan Berikan Aku Cinta

haha..

moga-moga aku dapat jodoh yang terbaik buatku..

Ya Allah, aku redha dengan ketentuanmu..

what if..

what if i want something that isn't mine?

hurm..

salah kan?

nak rasa jealous pun tak boleh..

nak marah lagi la tak boleh..

aku just boleh senyum and tumpang happy je..

bak kata shakespeare..

"to be or not to be

that is the question"

so, let nature take it's course..

and tiba2 teringat lagu kertas-kekasih tak dianggap..

haha..

random much?

sebab dah lama xdengar sebenarnya

tiada kaitan yg hidup atau yg mati..

sekian~ 

p/s: masih ada 12 hari lagi mau puasa n still saya chubby..owhemgeee...i need a shrinking machine or something..haha..ni dh macam doraemon..maybe i do need a magical pouch..haha..

one word describes it all

i am now feeling..

UNCERTAIN!

yes uncertain..

how it hurts to feel like this..

sometimes i'm positively sure..

but then, the feedback i get..

it somehow shows otherwise..

i want to be sure

i want to really believe..

to really believe that it's just not me..

i'm not alone in this..

hopefully one day i will be certain..

no matter what the outcome is..

unforgettable moments

a 'friend' said to me

he remembers everything form the first time we met

and i thought, okay cliche..

impossible for a guy to remember every detail..

but surprisingly he did..

and it made me think..

how i wish i could relive all those moments again..

but with the feeling i have today..

haha..

and would i change anything?

erm..yes..

the way i slept in the car..

hish,,buat malu jee..

haha

so here i'm happy to say..

i'm glad i know you..

i'm glad we met

i'm glad we are friends

i'm glad we are like how we are today..

i'm gla you came into my life

i'm glad i like you..

*omg...yes, that is a confession.

i'll cherish every moment i spend with you my entire life..

you know who you are.

and yes i'm talking about you!.

the moments we shared

the memories we made..

will never be forgotten..

it will never fade..

what we had were truly unforgettable moments

p/s: i hope you feel the same way too...=)

parappappappa i'm lovin it~

so yes today i am in love..

and, no people..

no as in with a capital 'N' 'O'

not with a person..

but with my new hair..

haha

totally loving it..

after a while of thinking whether to cut or not my hair..

i decided to cut it..

and the outcome is..

ME LIKEY!

haha..thanks to kak nancy..

we go way, way back..

since my sis was still in primary school..

and now she's like 16...

i'm totally gonna be your loyal customer kak nancy..

and..and..

the price is cheap..

RM7 only..

worth it right?

my day couldn't get any better..

wish i could post a picture..

but sadly, i can't..

don't worry peeps..

if i feel good with it, then it's good enough for me..

hee~

and whats with the MCD tagline??

*suka hati aku la nk letak tagline apa pun, n also sbb now bulan puasa..food comes first on my mind..have a nice day people! =)

aku kangen ama kamu

yup...
that's right..

i miss you..

soo damn much..

while writing this new post..

i'm listening to all the songs u made me hear..

though how much i miss you..

i know u won't be mine..

sigh..

hope you are doing fine..

though we are far apart, but u are always in my heart..

wanna know whom?

scroll down people...

owh my previous sony hp..

haha..

GOTCHA!!

*fikir bukan-bukan lettew..

birthday n ramadhan this year

yes, aku dah 20..
~sambilbuatmukannaoyedgila~

saya sudaahhh tuaaaa..

owh tidaaaakkkkk

haha..

i muda bergetah lg okay..

so on my birthday,

aku ke jakarta..

jeng,jeng,jeng..

surprise!!

yes on short notice..

seronok la ke sana..

bisa ketemu ama yanda yg jelek,..

yes itu yanda..
jelek kan..=P
so aku ke jakarta ikut my father laa..
everything was fine, sume okay..
balik je sini, life havoc..
lots of things happened..
xsangke kejap je sume boleh berubah..
i miss moments d jakarta..
happy2 aja bersama kawan2 baru..
haish..
*okay sudaa emo..


so, bercakap pasal ramadhan..
selamat berpuasa semua
hehe..
tak terlambat lagi kan?
puasa setakat ni ok laa..
penuh lagi..
haha..
tp puasa this year macam tak terasa sangat..
macam xpuasa laa senang cakap..
erk, tp xmakan n minum laa..
hish..
jangan buruk sangka..
and, and..
paling excited nak cite..
berat boleh naik..
yes, berat saya sudaa naik..
pelik kan?
ni mesti sebab makcik yang jual kuih tu buat sedap2 sangat..
kan dah makin ge...oppss..
makin chubby..
haha..
apa-apa pun..
selamat berpuasa semua..
jangan lupa terawih..
=)




p/s: ni actually post lama yg tersadai kat drafts..so post je la daripad duk semak kat situ.=)

message from life to me..

one valuable lesson i learnt from life..

is that never give more than u should..

never have high hopes on something that is impossible..

why?

because in the end, u'll be too heartbroken to stand up again..

for these past weeks..

i had moved on..

i had fallen in love..

i had my heart broken..

i had my trust being taken for granted..

i had been in misery..

and now today somehow i realised..

i should be stronger..

because i am strong enough to face this..

i have to be strong..

so what if things are not following my rhythm..

i could always change the melody..

owh well..

 just like what i posted at my fb..

no matter how lonely i feel, i am not alone

ALLAH is with me..

no matter how heartbroken i am, i am being loved..

ALLAH loves me..

i'm hoping for the best..

and i should work my way to get the best..

i am strong and i'm gonna prove it..