the only thing i do best

why do problems keep on coming in my life..

sometimes i just can't handle this alone...

honestly, i feel so lonely..

i feel that i am alone..

i have to bare the burden alone..

sometimes i just wanna leave my house, go somewhere..

and start a new life where nobody knows me..

but it's impossible...

i love my siblings that much..

wish i had a shoulder to cry on...

but i don't..

i'm alone and will always be alone..

why?

because i ain't good enough for anyone..

i wanna go to the beach..

and scream my guts out..

i wanna be a magician..

and disappear from people's life..

i wanna be invincible..

so that people would appreciate me more..

i wanna be loved..

so that i can share how i feel..

i'm sick and tired of pretending to be happy..

when the truth is i'm not..

i just wish that somehow..

people would see the tears in my eyes behind my smile..

guess for now i have to do the only thing i do best..

put on a smile for everyone..

and cry on the inside...